Life is changing way too fast for me. And since this is basically my journal I want to document this through my eyes only. I am proud of myself for handling these changes so well. Sometimes I can feel a little anxiety creeping in but it isn't bad, no heart flutters and my temper is in check! Now for the bad. I am a total scatter brain, I'm ODC organized right now and I want as much control as possible in the little things. I feel like I'm losing a lot of control in life and it is frustrating to me. First big change is we sold our razor. This has created more family memories than anything else our whole marriage. We have had so so much fun with visitors and friends as well. I was totally skeptical at first but I was the saddest to see it go. This was our last ride to Bluff Springs. It was a gorgeous day, dry wood for the fire and fun soup lunch.
Huge change number 2 is I'm getting released from Relief Society President. It has consumed my life and I wouldn't change a thing. It has overwhelmed me, taken over my beloved piano students, taken priority over my mothering sometimes, and costs a lot in babysitting. But worth every penny and minute. I felt whole when serving the sisters here. I have learned SO MUCH about the inter-works of the church and will NEVER nEvEr judge leadership again. I didn't realize how naive I was before to the problems and struggles of these sweet sisters trying so hard in life. It was humbling to go into these hard situations with a mantle and say promptings that I had no place to say. I was always surprised how well I was received and taken in hard situations. I am so grateful for Devin's hard work and our blessings in life but most importantly for the strength this has added to my testimony of this church. I didn't know I could feel this strongly about something. I know this church is fully restored and true. It is founded on perfect principles taught and followed by imperfect people. And that is how the Lord would have it. We have to make decisions in this life to move closer or farther from Him. All ... every single little decision has a consequence. I hope for mercy when I meet my maker for the decisions I made. I did it to the best I could and every day found my love for these sisters growing. Few regrets. The length of my calling. I felt like I was just getting going and connecting with the sisters. Every time I had to put my calling before my kids. And anytime I didn't spend building my testimony with the added strength of the spirit I felt every min of every day. I should have had better scripture studies. This was a bloody kareoke ward activity we hed up. And my we I mean the other girls. They did an amazing job. We had kareoke with the blood truck come. A stuffed animal and blanket drive with a chili cook off. It was a huge success.
Huge change three. We will be losing so many amazing friends/family. Callen has had a blast doing a play group with Nathan and Jonas. I will miss these moms like no other. They are so caring and giving and I hope to be like them someday. Brynlee is comfortable in her class and teacher and church. But I LOVE my friends right now. There are so many fun, creative, sweet girls that I feel privileged to have met and learn from. I will miss them dearly. I haven't cried yet writing this!!!
Huge change 4. Devin bought a dental practice in TX and we will be moving soon. The people he has been working with for the last 2 years have been nothing short of amazing. He has learned so much from them and we feel privileged to have worked at the office.
Huge change number 5. I'm pregnant!!! I have burned everything and nothing sounds good to eat or cook (which is really weird for me). I rear ended a semi which is unheard of for me. I've never been in an accident or got a ticket. Well minus when I was following my speeding husband and the cop gave both of us a ticket. I forgot I went to the store and ruined a bunch of food when I found my groceries the next day. Worst is my memory. No, worst is how sick I am. No motivation is an understatement. It isn't as bad as the first two pregnancies but still ... I want to meet everyone in TX when I'm in a good place. So maybe I'll need to hibernate for a bit until I can stand long enough in front of the mirror to put on makeup! :) The kids are at perfect ages and are so helpful. I think it is a girl but would love twins!!!
Huge change 6. Leaving the perfect weather. I have always talked about how important weather is. I have found the perfect weather that I could have even imagined. I loved monsoon season, cool winters, hot summers and the longest spring and fall you could imagine. When I'm sick of it I'm 15 minutes for the opposite climate in the mountains. It will be sad and hard to leave this beautiful weather!
I know we will find the good in a new town and there are good people where ever you move. But I really thought we would be in Alamogordo for a long time so I really fell in love with the good. I'm excited for the change because of Devin. This is his dream practice and he is so ready to take this jump. I'm holding on to our strong answers in this move and will follow my amazing man anywhere.
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